Friday, April 8, 2011

A Very Long Vlog You Don't Have to Watch

(From last thursday)


Amanda said...

I love you to death and it breaks my heart to listen to your video! You're amazing and beautiful and by far the best friend I've ever had in my life. I wouldn't be here without you, and I know it's not much consolation for a bad week but I wanted you to know how much of an impact you've made on MY life. Though cliche, when one door closes....
You need to CALL me more-- if you're having a bad day and want to eat ice cream, CALL ME! I miss you and it helps me out too.


Nikki said...

Wow - I really think you are making great strides in your attempt to change. Half of any problem is understanding the issue and knowing how you got there! Well you have done that! I'm proud of you and know that with time you will conquer this thing because you are a smart, strong willed person! My only thought comes from knowing so many people who are addicted to running because it kind of serves the same purpose in their life. Now to tell the truth I am in the running phase again, but am certainly not to the point of feeling the "high". However, I will say that Kristen did the couch to 5K app on her phone and got there! It took about 3 months and at that point she just wasn't happy unless she was running. That is what she is missing at this 7month point of pregnancy. She told me the other day she dreams about it! Go figure! She told me she can never stop eating good food, so she would have to take care of it some other way! Running was the answer for her! I'm hoping I'm not too old for it to be the answer for me too!! I love you and wish you all the best! Nikki

Anonymous said...

So I am sitting here watching your video and I am so absolutely awestruck and impressed by you. I have to say, the kind of honesty you have about everything is so amazing. Most people (including myself) will never have the ability to have the kind of honesty and insight that you do. Everything you said I could relate to, and it made me feel like I’m not alone. The fact that you are able to have this kind of insight means that you have already won. You are an inspiration to all of us.

Just because you haven’t been seeing the numbers that you would like on the scale, doesn’t mean you haven’t made incredible strides. The things that you said in the video are things that most people never realize or it takes them years and years of therapy. You have been making these changes to yourself on top of all of the difficulties you have been facing. ON TOP of that, you continue to be one of the most intelligent, accomplished, and giving people I have ever met. You say that you don’t have self-control, but you have to realize the kind of self-control and emotional energy it takes to face head on what you have been dealing with.

I’m sorry for writing this novel, but I just want you to know what an inspiration you are to me. There is a girl on the other side of the country who is looking up to you, cheering you on, and who believes in you 150%. I love you and miss you very much!